Today I need to just do a small vent.
On my to do list for blogs is, the reveal, cloth diapers and other happenings.
But for today I need to be vulnerable, selfish and pregnant.
Some days things just seem to get to me more. To really get under my skin more than normal. Today seems to be one of those days. I think, in my own view of my world, I haven't had too many days like this, so that's good for C :)
Today, pants don't fit.
I don't have enough pants.
Long sleeve warm shirts are not long enough for my enormous belly.
(I can usually be creative in this department but apparently hormones prevent that and just cause break downs.)
I sneezed and had to change out of my last clean maternity pants into sweat pants that just happen to still fit.
I have become a mouth breather and it is the worse at night, thus causing NO Sleep.Which seems to have caught up with me today. Thus causing a hormonal Kelsey to be super pleasurable.
My poor sweet husband who can sleep through EVERYTHING is also being kept up by my tossing and turning. Sorry boo!
We are also fostering a 1yr old dog, who is super sweet, but not quite trained to all the Haltermann house rules, like chasing the cat's is a no no, esp when a pregnant woman is trying to eat breakfast, and the cat runs up the stairs to a hallway with no where to go, and the pregnant woman has to run up said stairs ,[ which she can barely WALK up w/o loosing her breath], to save the cat!
Now the cats don't want to go outside at all, and we had to put a litter box inside. (Only after finding the rug they turned into their own pee spot w/o our knowledge! )
Oh and Abby taught the new dog how to go swimming in the fish pond....when its 27* outside!!!!
Picture now all of this happening in the a 1-2hr span while in trying to get ready to go to work and do normal things like switch out laundry, eat breakfast , feed all animals, do hair and makeup, pick up the living room & kitchen after the nightly tornado called C tears through it. Then picture my usually smiling face turned into something that the dogs don't even want to mess with anymore. And re-doing makeup, specifically in the eye region.
Ok enough about my morning hormone breakdown!
Let's be grateful for what we have.
***A healthy baby boy!
***A understanding and flexible place of work!
***A husband who somehow can still put up with me and make me smile!
***A pregnancy that I have been blessed with
***A pregnancy that has been fairly easy going
***A reliable car to get to and from work.
***Pet's who are loving and despite my breakdowns still come up to me to show love and comfort.
***Friends who I'm in contact daily who show me love and put me in my place when I get too hormonal
Thanks for reading my rant :) Please know how thankful for this sweet baby I am, I really am and I know I am blessed. I will take all that comes with it just to get to meet and hold him!
Oh goodness I remember waking my self up from snoring! Wait until you drool on your pillow you're so exhausted! The sleeping will only get worse from here lol- truth!. All I have to say is don't be set on exactly how how you want to do everything. TRUST ME things will change when your sweet little angel gets here accept that they might have to go differently and just go with the flow. Your husband and animals will just have to love you for who you are. Hormones rage after baby is here too. Im still raging lol Keep your chin up! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Audra! Sorry for the late reply! I just saw this. But yes I know he is worth it and time will fly by :) it will be a crazy ride !
DeleteOh girl! Hang in there. Here's a few helpful ideas that I found helped me out. ....
ReplyDelete1. -Clothes: perfect excuse to wear your hubby's button down shirts. Besides looking adorable, especially on you, they are comfy and because they are his, comfortING as well.
2- Sleeping/breathing during sleep: buy a wedge pillow. it will balance out your bump if you are a side sleeper and will help you sleep better and will actually help a bit with the snoring. When I was pregnant with the twins I used a wedge, a pillow between my knees, one at the small of my back and 2 under my head and 1 under my neck. Totall cocoon. Mark used to laugh that there was no room left for him in the bed with all of the pillows but it worked.
3. Pets: yeah baby girl, you are on your own on that one! Consider it patience training for those "mom omomomommom mmom MOM!!" moments you have in the future.
4. Don't worry over house cleaning. My philosophy is/was....Not going to be pregnant forever. Enjoying it while you can, the clutter etc will be there when you feel like getting to it. Same times a thousand when Spud gets here. Enjoy the moments. No one in their right mind expects a new mom to have a clean house. Priorites and that means family time above all else.Cherish those moments. The dishes can wait.
4.Overactive tear ducts - No stopping that. Don't apologize. The beautful baby bump says it all to anyone with a lick of sense.
5 KEEP BLOGGING! It's theraputic and even better, later down the road, you will love going back and reading them.
6 Keep your sense of humor no matter what.
Love to ya' girl!
Tara I heart you!!! haha I'm afraid if I wear one of his shirts we will have another kid on the way ;)
Deleteyes I sleep w a body pillow now, but the way i've been feeing this week (like a cow) a wedge sounds like it would just fit better and relieve pressure. I think C might have to go on a hunt for one!
Thanks for all the love and encouragement and advice! hugs from TX!!